Monday, November 4, 2013

is your heart in the right place?


             This post is brought to you by the book 'Bad Girls of the Bible' by Liz Curtis Higgs. Specifically the chapter on being generous for the right reason. It refers to the story in Acts 5. Basically its talking about being generous, but doing it to get the respect or acknowledgement of others. 

              I will say it does not flow... its random thoughts in random order so bare with me :)

              I will be the first to say that I am awful at tithing. I never seam to have cash on me, because we just use our debt card. I am that person that looks around thinking "gosh I hope no one notices the fact that I have just passed the plate the last 5 weeks".  When I do remember to bring money though I never feel that I care if people notice. 

              In the story it’s basically about how Ananias said he was telling people he gave more than he did. The sin is not keeping some for him self the sin was him not relying on God to provide, he held some of the money back "just in case" and he lied about it. He died on the spot after lying. "What made you think of doing such a thing? You have not lied to men but to God" Acts 5:4 

              I get it but I'm a cheap skate and I always like to have money "just in case" and trusting that the lord will provide is not hard UNLESS it has to do with finances (for me anyway). What if the tier blows and we have no savings? What if... I know God is there and provides, but HOW, how in the world can anything be done IN THE MOMENT right then and there.... well hum in the world (this world) that God created... wow I feel little

              When I do good I feel good and I like to share about it... dose that make the good doing not so good any more? kind of, if I’m doing good just to share with others what I have done and not WHY I have done it... what good am I really doing? 

               "Pride and generosity don't mix" some times when giving we expect something in return... I can honestly say that I don’t always expect something because I do get the point of giving. I don’t always need my name on what I have done... sometimes though its nice but I need to learn I don’t even need it sometimes. giving is fun if done with a giving heart and not a glorified one 

               "Learn to give when nobody's looking" I can do that and have I just need to do it more and not concern myself with what others are thinking about me and how my walk is effecting the choices I make when giving to others. My biggest issue is sometimes I don’t have anything to give, or at least that’s how I feel. But I have so much compared to some... I have a house and a loving family... giving does not need to be material items... I can ALWAYS give time... even with a family full of small needy children. 

             I guess I need to remind my self that even if I don’t have the money to give I have my time, my gifts and talents that the Lord has given me to share with others in his name. I also need to NOT ignore the feeling of needing to help others and just do it, and know that God will provide.
             

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